I am big enough to admit that I have always been looking for love.I have made many, many mistakes on the road to find love.As I look back I realize that I unwittingly convinced myself that it was love and not just infatuation.I married a few of those infatuations, I was also engaged to a few more and luckily stepped away before making it legal.Do I regret any of it, hell yeah. Did I learn anything, hell yeah, but not until years later. I do understand now that it was all about lessons for me to learn.
The biggest lesson was not to fool myself into thinking I needed someone to love me. I had the biggest love all along, I had the love of God/ the God source/Spirit, whatever you want to call that great source of all that is. And because we are all a part of that source we all have the ability to love ourselves. The hard part of course is living this human life and learning to accept ourselves.
We are all different in so many ways: ethnicity, skin color, language, mannerisms, personal preferences etc....we are different because we choose to be. We made those choices because we have something to learn about life and self and to allow spiritual growth.
So believe in yourself, listen to that first gut feeling and keep stepping forward. There is always light up ahead.
